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my night has become a sunny dawn because of you
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| has it been awhile or what? |
[24 Jan 2007|09:31pm] |
so its been a really long time since i have updated this, so i figured that i would give it a shot. not a whole lot has been going on. i had my 18th birthday and my mom threw me suprise birthday party. it was great and i am really happy that i have friends that can come and just spend time with me on my birthday (even if i complained when i first walked in:)). i have finally decided to stick with wayne state. i figure it is the best choice for me, even though i dont know if i cant handle it. i am now giong to be a SPECIALIZED CARDIOLOGIST. my major will probably change again, but what would life be if it didnt?
I AM PROBABLY MOVING AGAIN REALLY SOON:(. my mom says that she doesnt need all this extra room now that i am going off to college, so she wants to move into a condo. it is kind of sad. i really loved this house, and i have so many memories here. this is where i have spent all of highschool, this is where i have gotten into fights, this is where brownies were made. this is where sleepovers/parties sometimes have taken place, but i guess life has to change. it has to change.
i have been saying that a lot lately. LIFE HAS TO CHANGE. i can say it but how come i cant accept it? yuo woudlnt think that it would be that hard, right?
i am excited for this next semester, i know this is probably very wrong of me to do, but i took a semi easy second semester. i have A.P. bio, and Genetics, but that is about as hard as it gets. i am tech-aiding again. woo. i cannot wait.
I am going to snowbound with kayleen this next weekend. i think that it is giong to be fun. we will have to see.
****this mind and body cant be steifled by your deviant ways****
"""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""this may sound a little wierd but i dont know who i am anymore. i feel like i go through the same routine everday, like i am not really doing what i am doing. i am here, but i am watching someone else do everything that i do. i know i am doing it, but i wonder why. i am trying to figure out what is wrong with me, but i cant even figure out where to start. the more and mroe i think about it, i think if i cant even figure out myself that how is someone else? am i ever going to find someone that will know me, someone that i wont be afraid to be with? i keep thinking this is just is just a stage, something that will pass, but really is that just optimism? i have to admit, i am a little skeptical. i cant help but wonder whats next. i mean the step before this wasnt all that great, so it has to be brighter on the other side right? wrong.
wow this is long. i know it is probably just rambles. im sorry. i congratulate who all read this.
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| it just sickens them what i consider fun |
[02 Mar 2006|07:16pm] |
its been long since i last updated. a TON has gone on. although a lot has gone on, i still dont know what to really say. i have been trying lately to rekindle an old friendship with someone that i havent even spoken to in over seven years. it is really weird because you are all my friends now, and for some reason i feel that i need to get in touch with her. i think the major reason that i really want to get in touch with her, is that most of you have friends that you have had since like kindergarten or later right at your side still. i dont, and i want to talk to someone that grew up with me when i was a little bit younger, someone to talk about old times with that we've had. you know? i know that i never really open up and spill my whole thoguhts on most of you and im sorry for that, but you have to understnad thati am a closed book... not to mention some little details that really made me upset. i dont know if this is off-topic or not but i really want to just get away with a little bit with people that i havent talked to in awihle, and talk about all the good times, and party, and have fun. im not talking about just the friends from my old school, but even the friends i hvae now, that seem to have no time for me, or for some odd reason we just dont talk. i guess the major point of this is that i have majorly drifted from those friends that new me when i was a really small kid, and i think that in a sense the group has drifted a little bit, maybe jst from me, i dont know. i dont know completely why i feel this way if it isnt truly what is happening, but i do.
i think that i have finally worked up the courage to ask her out. well maybe not out on a date, but out somewhere, have ot work it slow. i dont know, maybe im insane.
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[26 Jan 2006|05:39pm] |
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im tired of being sick...
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[11 Jan 2006|03:54pm] |
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IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!
(17 here i am!)
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[06 Jan 2006|06:31pm] |
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stop on by, on your way to hell.
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[15 Dec 2005|06:52pm] |
9 days till christmas...
what do you want?
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| hello, im sixteen and im a capricorn |
[11 Dec 2005|04:09pm] |
Quickie:
More than ever, you need to persevere. Don't quit now -- you're almost there!
Overview:
Ready for complete, total, unbelievably all-encompassing love? 'Can't live without each other even if we wanted to' love? The good news is that it doesn't only happen on television. Don't rule it out entirely until you've given them a chance at an actual conversation.
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| GREAT JOB VARSITY BOYS SWIMMING |
[10 Dec 2005|10:04pm] |
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you all did very well today. as for me, i could not participate:(, but i was cheering you all on the entire time. i still cannot believe that we(you guys) got fifth out of what sixteen?. that is freaking amazing! i found out when i got home for almost sure that i might have to quit diving. my mom wanted to know how the meet went, and i told her. yeah as for you all that dont know. i hit the board on friday. i mean it wasnt hard, i only have a little bit of a battle wound. i guess we can just say that i got into a rough gang fight:0. im going to try and convince her to let me stay, cause i really do enjoy doing it. plus the team will really be taking one in the ass if i dont. i mean im not that good of a diver, but we can do more if there is two. hey at least i tried.:(
<3
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| busy, but i still find time to love you |
[08 Dec 2005|07:34pm] |
so there is a lot to say about this week.
lets just say it was way too busy.
but no matter how much i complained :(
i loved every moment of it. i still have
a lot to do though, which consists of
school tomorrow, and swimming meet this
weekend. which i am pumped for. then
i hope that i actually get some down time
for a couple of days, cause i need the sleep.
<3
X-hoping for a snowday.
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[27 Nov 2005|10:55am] |
stolen from ashley!
FAVORITE:
1. GUM: Any
2. RESTAURANT: Taco Bell
3. DRINK: Coke
4. SEASON: Spring
5. TYPE OF WEATHER: A raining while sunshine day.
6. EMOTION: knowing everything will be okay.
7. THING TO DO ON A HALF DAY: sit and relax
8. LATE NIGHT ACTIVITY: PARTY
9. SPORT: Well I do like diving, but running is still #1
10. CITY: Paris
11. STORE: Whichever has good stuff
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU...
12. CRIED: About a month and a half ago.
13. PLAYED A SPORT: im in one right now
14. LAUGHED: last night
15. HUGGED SOMEONE: yesterday
16. KISSED SOMEONE: yesterday
17. FELT DEPRESSED: every now and again
18. FELT OVERWORKED: this weekend.
19. FAKED SICK: last year.
20. LIED: oh idk.
WHAT WAS THE LAST...
21. WORD YOU SAID: good morning.
22. THING YOU ATE: popcorn
23. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: Harry Potter
24. THING YOU DRANK: soda
25. PLACE U WENT TO: Bay City Civic Arena
26. MOVIE YOU SAW: Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
27. MOVIE YOU RENTED: shes all that, under someone elses name
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU...
28. HUGGED: ...
29. CRIED OVER: ...
30. KISSED: ...
31. DANCED WiTH: friends.
32. SHARED A SECRET WITH: ummmmm. 1
33. HAD A SLEEPOVER WITH: The MOST WONDERFUL people in the world(my friends)
34. CALLED: Rose Licavoli
36. SAW: Andrew
37. WERE ANGRY WITH: Andrew
39. OBSESSED OVER: i wouldnt say "obsessed"
HAVE YOU EVER...
40. DANCED IN THE RAIN: yes
41. KISSED SOMEONE: YES
42. DONE DRUGS: no, not like marijuana.
43. DRANK ALCOHOL: ive had some.
44. PARTIED 'TIL THE SUN CAME UP: Every Party
46. GONE TOO FAR ON A DARE: uh huh
47. SPUN AROUND UNTIL YOU WERE IMMENSELY DIZZY: yes
48. TAKEN A SURVEY QUITE LIKE THIS: yeah
MY LIFE...
49. NAME: Nathaniel Ryan Bossick
50.GENDER: Male
51. WHERE YOU LIVE: on S. Warner
52. OCCUPATION: Student
PLAY:
53. I'M FEELING: sleepy
54. I'M LISTENING TO: Harry Potter complain.
55. I'M DOING: this survey
56. I'M TALKING TO: no one
57. I'M CRAVING: some breakfast
58. I'M THINKING OF: the one i love. duh.
59. I'M HATING: that my butt is numb.
LOVE:
60. LOVE IS: An Age old term that no one can put into terms, yet everyone knows exactly what it is in their hearts.
61. MY FIRST LOVE: my first "real" love was kayleen
62. LOVE OR LUST: love
63. BEST LOVE SONG: "dont wanna miss a thing"-aerosmith
64. IS IT POSSIBLE TO BE IN LOVE WITH MORE THAN ONE PERSON AT A TIME: no
65.IS THERE SUCH A THING AS LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: no, only lust at first sight
CHOOSE ONE:
66. DOG OR CAT: dog
67. SHORT OR LONG HAIR: depends
68. SUNSHINE OR RAIN: i LOVE the rain
69. HUGS OR KISSES: Both at the same time
70. SUMMER OR WINTER: Summer
71. WRITTEN LETTERS OR EMAILS: eh, not much anymore
72. PLAYSTATION OR NINTENDO: Nintendo
73. CAR OR MOTORCYCLE: Car
74. HOUSE PARTY OR CLUB: Well saying as ive never been to a club, HOUSE PARTY
75. SING OR DANCE: both
76. FREAK OR SLOW DANCE: FREAKY BABY
LATELY
77. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? exhausted
78. WHAT PANTS ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW: track pants
79. WHAT SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW: my green T.K.O malleys shirt
80. HOW IS YOUR HAIR RIGHT NOW: messy (i just woke up)
81. WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: none
82. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW: havent looked yet
83 WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE: Rose
84. WHAT IS THE LAST DREAM YOU HAD THAT YOU CAN REMEMBER: Well i dont think that i can get into that. it was a guys only have.
<3
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[21 Nov 2005|05:41pm] |
hey. friends i need your help.
i want to make a new lj name,
or a new screenname. does
anyone have any ideas? comment!
thanks.:)
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[15 Nov 2005|04:27pm] |
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oh god. i love you all.
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[07 Nov 2005|05:43pm] |
this would be nice....
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don’t speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want--good or bad. When you’re finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.
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| "the vodka is used for washing down the vicadin" |
[29 Oct 2005|11:43am] |
Three day weekend. i believe you all know the views on that one. exactly!
Phils party tomorrow. excited. i am a pirate. well sort of a pirate, i went out and bought an eyepatch... yes that is my creativity for this year. yeah i know. didnt put much thought into it, but oh well. i could always be the semi-disfunctional pirate stripper, who comes equipped with an eye patch and a peg leg. but we will see how that thought goes.
i.c.e.c.o.l.d.
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[20 Oct 2005|04:06pm] |
we got the afternoon
you got this room for two
one thing left to do
discover me... discovering you
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[20 Oct 2005|03:10pm] |
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i got my report card yesterday. i got a 3.666. yeah it is pretty neat. not as good as most the people in our group but whatever. i am happy with it. just wish that i would have done better.
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| I want a relationship like this. |
[19 Oct 2005|03:14pm] |
Danny and Ally on phone:*
Danny: hey, so how was your day?
Ally: it was fine, how was yours?
Danny: it was ok
~akward silence~
Danny: sooooo......
Ally: *giggle* sooooo.....
Danny: you doin anything tomarrow?
Ally: nope, why?
Danny: uhh, umm, maybe, uhh, idk, we can, hang out or somethin?
Ally: *blushes* okay, what time?
Danny: *big smile!* uhh, thatd be great, how about around 6:00pm or something?
Ally: Alright! I'll meet you over at the park then...
Danny: great then
Ally: well i gotta go, but i'll see you tmrw?!
Danny: ok, see u then....
-----next day------
>>>Ally walks over to the park and see's Danny sitting on a bench waiting for her.<<<
Ally: hey, whats up?
Danny: uhh nothin, im happy too see you
Ally: *smiles* me too
Danny: alright, how about we go take a walk
Ally: okay
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As they walk she grabs ahold of his hand, Danny *smiles* as they walk threw the park.
----starts getting dark----
Ally: brrr, its getting a little cold out
Danny: wanna go sit on the grass
Ally: sure
Danny and Ally: (takes a seat near a tree while Danny holds Ally in his arms keeping her warm)
Ally: thankyou, i feel much better now
Danny: me too
Ally: *giggles* why is that?
Danny: cause im with you
Ally: i happy with you too
Danny: uhh, umm, ...nevermind
Ally: no, what is it, you can tell me
Danny: its just....
Ally: ya???
Danny: i feel different when im with you
Ally: i do too...
Danny: i mean, you make me wanna be with you for the rest of my life, iv never had anyone make me feel the way you make me feel...
Ally: *blushes* i do too
Danny: i, i, lo.....
Ally: (leans over a kisses him)
-a few moments into kiss-
Danny: uhh *blushes*
Ally: i love you too
Danny: i love you and i always will
_Danny and Ally, boy holding girl as they look up at the stars_
Danny and Ally fall asleep under the stars....
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10 YEARS LATER
Ally: WORKING AS A MAGAZINE EDITOR, 24 YEARS OLD
Danny: WORKING AS A MEDICAL DOCTOR, 25 years old
The two dated up untill prom night where Danny asked Ally too be his wife.....
Ally Roberts is probley one of the happiest women on earth,
Danny is probley the luckiest....
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Repost if you just want to find that right person too fall in love with.....or u already have :)
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Whoever ruins this
will be single
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| today wasnt all that lovely. |
[18 Oct 2005|08:08pm] |
this entry is going to probably be complaining, so if you dont want to read this, i suggest that you turn back now.
today was not the first of many bad days that have happened to me in not just the recent but in the past couple of weeks. i really noticed it today however. i had four people come up to me and ask me what was wrong, or do you need to talk. and you know me, i said no im fine, and just shrugged it off. but the fact was that my face showed what i was really feeling. i dont know what is wrong with me. today was a very bad day. first hour was stupid. second hour mrs. heron practically killed me. third hour i got yelled at three times, for not taking pictures of f'in seminars where their not doing anything. lunch lisa and myself had to clean the whole cafeteria because the stupid janitor, and hickner, well hickner is hickner enough explanation there. i know this is going to sound stupid but im just really stressed, and cant take much right now. it seems as if every little thing i do, ends up hurting someone, or getting someone in trouble, or just amkes myself look dumb. I freak out over the stupidest of things. yes like taking pictures for all the homecoming stuff. i did that. and i got itall done, but yet i dont think their good enough. i just wanted to end it today. i wanted the world to go away. i wanted to lock myself in my room. turn the radio on so loud, that i couldnt hear my own thoughts pounding at through my head that im not good enough, or that i need to do that extra thing jus to keep up. i feel as if i have kept things in for so long, and they are about to burst. i can feel them on the tips of my lips, but i know that i cannot say. and i never would. i feel as if my friends the ones that i care about a hell of a lot, dont even know me, and they all say i keep everything in so why shouldnt i trust them. but how can my friends know me when i dont even think that i know myself? i have a major test tomorrow, that i dont even think that i am ready for, but i never do. i am getting all this pressure from places to do everything just right, or it isnt good enough. i found out a lot of information a little bit ago, that i cant really divulge, but lets just say that it is really hurting me, and i dont know how to handle it. i dont think that i can do anything right. i try to, and osmetimes it may seem that i am doing good or whatever, but i seriously sit there and figure it out forever. i am glad though at those people today, that asked me if anything was wrong, or if i needed to talk, and i really do need to talk. i need to just scream, and i need someone that can hold me down while i freak out. i think that people think that im annoying, and that half the time i dont know what im talkng about, but truly im just trying to be nice more than half the time, and i cant take that they dont like me being nice, and just take it as me being dumb. i just cant. this proves today that ihave had too mcuh, on the bus, i was sitting there, thinking what if i did this, or what if i did that, and i seriousy just started to cry, and no one probably noticed because i put my head into my arms, and jus stayed there for a bit. i wondered what would really happen if i did do that. would it make an impact or would just be another day. but that is just my thoughts on today, and the events that happened today, now times that by a couple of weeks, and me finidng out that people i trusted lied to me. then you have me right now.
l.o.v.e.
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[18 Oct 2005|04:47pm] |
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Dear Tuesday, October 18, 2005...
...I hate you
l.o.v.e.-
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